29.1.05

Well, the latest thing in my life is that I moved back to Minneapolis. I moved in with an old friend and her family and other housemates -- about half the people in the house are related, and it's a big house. It's very cool. I've now met all my housemates and neighbors in the building, even the busy ones who aren't around every day. I have seen the Great Library of SFF and my jaw dropped to the floor -- one of my housemates is a book collector who got together with another book collector and I thought the books down on the second floor in the living room were great. I was wondering where the fiction was. Till I went up and visited their rooms going through to the third bathroom when the other two were in use.

Wow. It was like seeing a normal size town library in a reasonably literate town -- except that 90% of it is SFF and the paperbacks are more numerous than hardbacks. I was stunned. It's alphabetized. I can borrow books, but I'll have to be careful to reshelve them because this is not a public library where people getting a reasonably good paycheck reshelve everything. This is a private collection and it must have taken them a long time getting them that organized.

I've got 31 days of residency before I can get General Assistance up here -- the up side is that it's only 31 days instead of New York's six month residency. I might go a few of those days without some of my medication, or not. A friend in Colorado is going to try to pick up my February prescriptions and if he does, great, then I won't have to worry about being covered till I get on the GA Medical plan up here. If not, I could be in serious trouble.

I've got nine left of my one-a-day medication, and that one makes a huge difference in how well I function. But I needed to get moved in. Starting February 1, I have a 100,000 word Novel Dare at Hobgoblin.net and that's going to help if I have to do without one of my medications entirely and skimp on the other. Writing is analgesic. If I get completely distracted by focusing on a new novel, I can ignore pain a lot better than if I'm not writing. Hopefully instead, I'll get my medication and it won't be a problem.

I wrecked my back and legs yesterday in a massive effort working on getting my room cleared out. I like my room. It's private, it has a door, I can go in there and close it and focus on writing or whatever without too much trouble and it has two windows. I'll get enough light in there. But it had been someone else's room. Someone else moved down to the second floor into a different room but had years of stuff up there stored or up on the walls, lots of little personal things that I felt awkward trying to deal with. When I asked, she told me it was okay for me to pack them up so for a week I've been packing small stuff categorically and trying not to damage anything because it's not my stuff. I don't know what's important or not.

We finally got it all out yesterday, and another housemate is doing a barter arrangement for vacuuming and helping me get set up in there. That rocks. Together we got several more days worth of stuff brought down and then last night the person moving out got the last three stacks and packages that were set out in the middle of the room. She changed her mind about leaving the desk up there and lending it to me though, so I'll be looking for a desk on Freecycle and using my rolling cart for a desk. Or putting a plank across stacks of plastic tubs.

Barter housemate got the idea of shampooing the carpet instead of just vacuuming, which will rock. Having the room deep clean before I unpack any of my stuff will help a lot for me to figure out how to keep it clean with minimal effort. I've been working on this for about eleven days not and it'll be one more day's delay, but in the long run it will help. Ari won't get confused by the scent of various other cats -- it'll be all clean and he'll have his box and recognize it.

I love him and I miss him. He's spent most of the time I've been here down in the basement rafters hiding from the dogs. Since the stairs are one of the dogs' favorite hangouts, he has a hard time getting upstairs for anything. Yesterday he did creep upstairs at a time they were all asleep and I gave him a whole bag of Pounce treats and a lot of food and water, we spent hours snuggling and purring. He even stayed up here in the second floor living room while I slept and woke me up stomping on my chest and purring. But when helping-housemate and I went upstairs to work on the room, he ran down the stairs again. Poor little guy. Another day's delay will be hard on him, but at least he's safe and warm inside and nothing happened to him during the days he vanished.

The dogs are not actually dangerous to cats. They're playful and like to chase them. The other cats have learned that if they don't want to play, all they have to do is lay down and refuse to move. Ari has a phobia though. They're big and he's terrified of dogs. I can see the tails wagging and hear the difference between "come play" barks and aggressive growling. Ari can't distinguish that and has been terrified since the night we got here. Having his own room where we can shut the door and dogs are not allowed at all will help him a lot.

In a month or so, the house will also have puppies. Efforts to separate Sam from Frodo and Ginger weren't enough and clever Sam managed to get around them, twice, result being a litter of blue heeler pups and a litter of large red half-heelers, both of which litters the owners seem confident about placing somewhere (probably on farms, since these are really big dogs and the blue heelers are great herding dogs). What it means for me and Ari is that I'd better get everything I own upstairs if I don't want it chewed.

I'm living on the third floor. This won't be as bad as New York because I'm not crossing a huge sports field sized yard along with climbing the stairs, and the stairs are indoors. It's easier to stop at landings and not take them all at once. Laundry is going to be an expedition once a month but when I do it, I'll bring down a book or my laptop and hang out in the laundry room till it's done.

I've had two years of recovering from New York. My good days are more functional than they used to be, but I can tell that living here will take strategy and days of recovery when I go out to do things. It could work if I'm very careful and don't go out often.

My friend invited me to stay "as long as you need to" and said about rent "donations gratefully accepted." I know from past experiences that if there's any economic hardship, it creates a huge tension in the household and can wind up in my having to leave. But I found out what the suggested rent is if I'm working or getting enough from benefits to pay it, and that this state gives General Assistance to people who have "temporary or permanent illness and haven't been able to work for 30 days, but are not also getting SSI. Well. I am still trying to get SSI and that would be $545 a month which would make the rent easy, and even General Assistance up in New York was $427 and could still make the rent possible. I'd be a bit tight but I'd actually have some money left over every month for spending cash or, because I'm still getting settled, furnishing my room bit by bit when I've gone through the old stuff from previous tenants and gone through Freecycle to see what they have. I need to get a bed, a dresser and hopefully a usable armchair with a lot of padding.

Down in the pile of stuff abandoned by previous tenants I thought I saw a rattan armchair with cushions, that if I cleaned it up and added more cushions could work and fit the bill. That could be very cool. I'm going down today just to see what's there and if I find anything good, get help getting it upstairs after the carpet's dried.

It'll take work, but I think I can make that room cosy and hopefully manage to stay longer in one place than I have since I left the shelters and NY subsidized housing. Time to go see what's going on and bring my scared cat some food...

27.1.05

Wow, I didn't realize I still had this blog. Cool. I thought it was deleted for inactivity, but I guess not. That's very cool.

Guess I'll update it now and then since I know it's still here. :)

15.4.03

The Dvorak block broke down last night when I did another 2,000 words on Maker of the Houses of the Dead, -- erotic sword and sorcery for upcoming new ezine Strange Love. At my fastest point, I hit almost a thousand in an hour -- real close to a slow normal hour on QWERTY. And in a difficult genre.

One that I will be doing a lot with soon -- after this one is done then I'm going back to Emperor of the Bed...

10.4.03

Done and all taken care of. Sheets are back on the bed and all the books put up nicely in the crates that are doing service as bookshelves till I make a new bookcase. I really want to make a bookcase. I came up with a good design for a tall skinny one to maximize paperback space -- twelve inch shelves are just begging for double stacking, so I'm doing it with six inch wide boards.

For the craft project, I hemmed a piece of good crimson fabric to make a napkin for my lady. SCA stuff -- I'll put a corner design on it with blackwork or something a bit like blackwork. Not the counted thread stuff but just a cool design in the shaded like an ink drawing style.

Oh cool -- my blackwork book wasn't the one that got rain damaged. I won't have to rely on guesswork.

Blackwork by Mary Gostelow, Dover Needlework Series, ISBN 0-486-40178-2 if you're interested in medieval embroidery. I hadn't actually done anything out of this book yet, so this should be interesting. Also I am reading for style to refresh myself on what all to put into my own articles when I get ready to do them. Should be soon with the way I'm typing...

Oh great. This still gets so frustrating. I wanted to take a long soaking bath for my back and have clean sheets on the bed on the same day. Definitely a personal luxury given that making the bed is usually a major effort on my back and that I only got one set of sheets since the other set vanished in the move from New Orleans. Which means doing laundry and stripping bed same day. So I got into the stack of towels and was rather glad I did.

Ari sprayed and half the stack also has to go into laundry. That load is washing now. Frustrating and does mean that I will need to do a little more around my room than planned so that all the towels and linens I used to keep on the shelf he uses for his hideaway get put away in tubs. I'm glad I did get that many tubs. That means unpacking and shelving the last two plastic boxes of books so that I have one free for towels. But the cat will not win this one.

Everything else that's up there is already in tubs so that won't be a problem. He isn't happy -- he has to deal with Argent and Argent still invades his territory all the time. I can't think of a way to deal with that except to let them work it out for themselves, but I can at least get my stuff out of the way of it.

Poor little guy. He has had his life disrupted thoroughly several times already, but he is starting to get affectionate again and slept with me last night. I do have to work all the usual cat bad habits into Magic in the Streets or Magic would be too unrealistically perfect.

Oh well -- on with the bath and sorting-out and then maybe work on a craft thing before I do the second part of the effort on the bed. Looks like today will be one of those exercise days....

7.4.03

Doing a bit better on the Dvorak now. I only have to backspace every other word or so.

Adults grouse about daylight savings time, especially now in the spring when you basically lose an hour of sleep. Reflect for a moment on how that seems to a five year old girl who did not understand that her mom couldn't repeal the whole thing. Then on what it's like to be a vulnerable male within earshot of those tears and unable to do a thing... and the poor kittenlet has a cold anyway and was home from school,

I rediscovered Prismacolors today and last night, completing a major piece that turned out pretty well for something that's basically illustration and calligraphy. Ought to get Vel to scan some of the cool things in my sketchbook and maybe put them up on my Author Site. This has helped with the frustration of the Dvorak retraining. I still need to do a story for Dstar, something a bit longer and more elaborate than the ones I wrote before coming down -- but I am not rushing myself.

I have been sleeping a lot -- when not having trouble sleeping, that is. It's weird. A lot of the perpetual stresses of my life are beginning to diminish. I'm living in a good place and my health is gradually on the mend. Purr! Vel just gave me a chocolate straw -- waferish light cookie rolled around a soft chocolate filling -- it was great.

And the result of landing in a great situation? I wind up getting all fried about all the deadlines I messed up in 2002 when for most of the year I was just not firing on all thrusters. Going nuts getting caught up. Including getting around to doing the Dvorak thing because there will be no better time than now to put up with the inconvenience of being too slow for words -- literally.

During the March Madness every hobby I ever had was screaming my name. And today I finally took a little time out to mess with colored pencils because my laptop was at 65% Undefragged last night so even typing practice was right out of it. And I did this art project I had been putting off -- it seriously helped ease my mind a bit. One by one I am catching up to all the things I thought I could do... and I am getting them done. Not all at once but definitely steady progress.

And in a week or two my backup computer will be online on Linux! Another long put off thing slowly coming into focus...

4.4.03

Final count on March Madness -- 50,000 and change.

The point that I hung up and did not manage to do one more word on Magic in the Streets without massive rumination was a natural break point -- a third of the way into the book. I chose not to worry about it. I was trying to do a three day novel -- and then two more within seven days. I hit my Nanowrimo pace and got a lot done. I am ahead of what the class requires and that is what matters -- some folks are still working on their class novels. I am far enough along that I can handle the class schedule and get it done.

This post is being typed very slowly in Dvorak.

You can't see the pain that is going into it as I fight for the simplest expression. The number of typos by the compulsive typist who lives online and is out of his gourd to try this. But what you will get is more and better novels because I am doing something this insane. I have thrown away 30 years of skill at touch typing.

That's literal.

In just 24 hours, I have forgotten where the qwerty keys are. I had to log into the house network here at the Woods Hall Institute for the Perpetually Weird, and I automatically tried in Dvorak with unlabeled keys. But Windows had fooled me -- it wasn't properly changed at all so I had to remember a password that I had used every day for a month -- and then hunt and peck till I got it.

I am real good at forgetting things!

They even moved the punctuation on me. Well, I should have expected that, I mean, punctuation is a part of typing or I would not have sold even one story. But this is strange and I am now a kid again, a writer who can't type. So I'll learn. I am a bit more careful this time around about not looking at the keys and using the right fingers for the keystrokes -- but I will get fast!

Dvorak gives most people an additional 20 words per minute on their typing speed.

I wonder how big this summer's 3 day novel will be...

27.3.03

27,047 at end of Day Two of March Madness...

This is woefully short of what I'd wanted to get done in two days. I should have been doing 17k a day, which means that's 7k short of the full count I ought to have had by midnight. I'm not writing as fast as I'd like to. I'm not managing to work around distractions well enough -- and one of the biggest is now struggling with the outline. I hit scenes I don't like, so I have to punch them up. That takes rumination, though it is resulting in reasonably plausible prose. The book doesn't suck.

But the book isn't an easy one to write, either, and not as immersive as the pure-fantasy ones for me. Sometimes it is. Whole stretches of it go into the zone and I get lost in Magic cat's adventures. Other times I hover over it and push just to get a few hundred words in.

Time to write.

Maybe I can catch up after all...

Robert and Ari >^..^<